Today is your Birthday 🎈


Today is your first birthday.

This year you have been my entire world.

There have been ups;

Your first words, your first steps and just getting to watch you grow even more beautiful each day.

On the inside and out.

There have been downs;

Post partum, crying, frustration.

No matter how hard it gets, you’re worth it to me.

Your little smile is worth it.

And even when I have the worst day ever,

maybe because you were grumpy that day,

It will always be worth it.

Having you at 21 was hard.

Labour was hard.

Not sleeping was hard.

Looking and smelling far from my best,
That was hard.

But having a child isnt supposed to be easy.

I will always try my best to make sure it is hard because nothing good ever comes with ease,

And baby you are SO worth it.

Happy birthday my darling girl.

Laugh,

Smash your cake,

And cry if you want to.

Its your party after all.

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Today is your Birthday 🎈

I didn’t love you.

She caught a glimpse of herself, existing, lonely.

In her mind, drowned by the sound of sad songs and ex lovers.

What could of been, cut short by what never was.

Memories, is all he holds – she holds.

Lost kisses muffled by the rain, trapped in the perfume that she wore that night.

For in that moment She felt lonely but she was never alone.

The sky is so vast, The stars are so far away, yet we feel their beauty and sense their pain.

I sense you, like a ghost in the blackness of the night.

Its dark now and I shouldn’t be thinking of you.

I never loved you, not real love, I thought I loved you, then you left.

It was like we were living our own romantic movie, you touched my heart Q.

But I didn’t love you.

I didnt love you.

How could I if we never made love.

SEX is that all You can think of?

I said we never made love.
We never made it.
We didnt even try.

Making love, creating love, but we never had a chance.

So I smoke my weed and I’m off in a trance about how I should have told you to stay, I should have taken a stance.

GO! Love the world like you should and i’ll love mine. We both moved on and now I realize I wasted my time.

I didn’t love you.